Hallo,

Orlando was great fun! Thanks to the recession (wow, never thought I’d be happy about that), the line were no longer than 30 minutes and more than 15 minute waits were rare. So we [Claire, Allan, Richie, and I] got to go on all of the rides we wanted to at least once. I finally got to go on the Mummy (which had been built just after my last visit in 2005 I think), and we all went on the Simpson’s Ride for the first time. The Simpson’s was more laughter than excitement, but I enjoyed it all the same.

We went to a restaurant called “Tu Tu Tango” on Friday night, and it was awesome. Claire snuck me a Tequila Sunrise (because she’s a good sister), and also some sips of her drinks beforehand as well as a spiked cranberry juice =D. The food at Tu Tu Tango was awesome. There was this four or five-cheese pizza that…oh my god…it made me fall in love with pizza all over again. It was topped with ricotta cheese, which I am now madly in love with. The entire place was covered in local artwork, all of which intrigued me. I wish there was one down here =|. Oh and, though the whole event was fun in itself, the Tequila Sunrise really topped it off.

Saturday was Universal and Islands of Adventure, which I already went over. That night, my dad got these VIP passes via The National League of Cities Convention (which was the reason my parents were in Orlando originally), and we got to go to Universal after hours with all of the other League of City people. There were only 4 rides open, all of which we’d been on before, but it was still fun. There was an open bar, but I figured I’d had enough for the weekend.

Sunday was leaving day. We went to a nice restaurant for lunch, where I got to eat an entirely Ghirardelli cake+ice cream dessert. It was delicious…

Tomorrow night was supposed to be my birthday dinner (lol, a second one) but Claire has classes all night, so we did it today. So far, I got a Target gift card from my grandma Bee, a $50 check from my grandma Hadden, a $25 check from my Uncle Bruce, and this shirt from my sister: http://www.amazon.com/Folter-CORSET-BEATER-WOMENS-BLACK/dp/B000VEQJDM/ref=pd_sbs_a_33. Nice huh? I love it. Of course, Ivan got me a gift =3, which I love. It’s a nice lolita-esque skirt that’s a lot like the pirate-lolita skirt I wanted from Fan+Friend, except it’s more casual and wearable (though I’m crazy and would still wear the F+F one anyways).

So far, it’s been a good birthday =). I’ve gotten nice gifts, I’ve had awesome celebrations, and I’ve still got tomorrow’s gift from my parents (hopefully my EePC?) and next weekend’s celebrations. I just wish I didn’t have to plan anything for next weekend…can you guys make me a cake and plan it all out? I seriously just like….don’t want to be bothered this year.

I’ll be 17 tomorrow at 10:23pm. Happy Birthday to me!

[Ace]

P.S. I got a spontaneous interview at Cj’s Italian Eatery. They told me I was hired, so long as the guy they just hired fails his test-run over the next few days. I really, really hope he does, because the manager seemed really nice and I really liked the environment.

So,

Yesterday I finished retaking Algebra II! Now, instead of the “F” I originally had, I now have an 87%. Hopefully, that raises my GPA a bit…that last year at PBHS was the worst I’ve ever done academically. Fuck Chemistry and fuck Ms. Zambrano, I blame her for my now 3.1 unweighted GPA (which used to be 3.6).

Today has mostly been spent trying to catch up with U.S. History reading. Other than that, my parents have already left for Orlando. It’s actually really nice; the house feels bigger due to their absence. When they left, my first instinct was to break out some alcohol or pot, but I settled for studying >_<. I think I’m a little too responsible sometimes.

Tomorrow’s Composition, which (as of lately) won’t be very eventful. We have one essay left to write, and it’s not due until December. It’s a 5 page minimum research paper, which can have any topic so long as it’s not controversial (like about how white people are superior to black people controversial). My essay will be “Socialism VS Capitalism”, and it’s purely informative (no opinion whatsoever). People need to stop throwing words like “socialist” and “communist”, it’s obnoxiously ignorant.

Friday, after U.S. History class, we’ll be leaving for Orlando/Islands of Adventure/Universal. I haven’t been there in about six years, and that was a lame school trip. So now I get the chance to go on some more rides like the Mummy. On a more materialistic note, I really hope my parents bought me my EePC =|. I really, really need a portable computer of some kind. Speaking of gifts, Ivan’s sending my gift today =D. I can’t wait…he’s been teasing me with it for weeks.

Arg, I’m bored. I think I’m going go make Ivan, Fire, and Blade play TF2 with me…after I make myself a milkshake =P.

[Ace]

A minute ago, I was going to post a journal entry about this really disappointing kid. But then Blade came along and gave me my birthday gift early, so now I don’t really care anymore. I’m too happy with my gift.

[Ace]

P.S. it was TF2 =3

So, before I get on with describing my Halloween, here’s a link to my Birthday wishlist:

http://www.thethingsiwant.com/aceface/list/wishlist/

Buy me anything on there, and you’re guarenteed to have bought me a good gift. But creativity is encouraged =). My birthday is November 18th, a Tuesday this year. The weekend prior to the 18th, I will be going to Universal and Islands of Adventure with my siblings. It sounds silly, but this is the last year Claire will defnitely be here for my birthday, and it’s possibly the last year Richie will be too. They both plan on moving to NY within the next year. I wanted this year to be special.

As for friend-related birthday plans…I still have none. All I know is I want the following people to participate: Fire, Blade, Tanner, Laura, Fern, Leo, Spoot, and Sub. The first two are musts but I would really like the others as well. I don’t know what I want to do with these people yet. Ideally, I’d like to do something at Sub and Fern’s again, but I’m too shy to ask them. Not necessarily drinking, though I wouldn’t mind there being a small supply of alcohol, but I something in a house that is not mine with these people.

Halloween was very spur-of-the-moment this year. I knew I was going with Laura to wherever she was going, and this year it was the Kava Bar’s “Bulaween” and then to the midnight showing of Rocky Horror Picture Show. To summarize, I had a very fun night. I roleplayed a little by improvised belly dancing every once in a while, and a couple of people complimented my costume =).

Kava was nice, but it’s really best to end the night with that than start it…that stuff makes me sleepy. Rocky Horror was really fun. We danced the Time Warp and listened to various people yelling hilarious statements at the screen. I want to do it again in the future. Also, I like Rocky Horror much more now =). First time reaction was like “What the fuck?”, second time reaction was “Fuck yeah!”.

That’s about all. Today I’m just downloading TF2 via Chink’s account, while waiting for the appropriate time to call Ivan <3.

[Ace]

Dear Reader,

I sometimes let the people, who like me, go too far. I do it partially because I like the affection and partially because I want to make them happy (though, I find it hurts them more in the long run). I feel like I owe anything and everything to anyone who shows me the least bit of affection. I’ve been dealing with this flaw in my personality ever since I can remember. I’d let anyone who claimed to like me to do almost anything they wanted to me, so long as they promised that they would never abandon me. Of course, this does wear out at some point, otherwise I’d still allow Tanner and Erica to treat me the way they did. But it always takes a long time to wear out, and (with time) it returns to me and I put aside my dignity and hope that I can still reconcile with those that have wronged me (i.e. Ashley, Gina, Liz, Courtney, Travis, Tanner, Erica). Leo tells me I’m a good person for it, but so far it does nothing but hurt me.

[Ace]

That’s it, I’m cutting myself off of that group.

Fuck every single one of them. I’m sick of being hated without just cause, I’m sick of being abandoned, I’m sick of hearing about them. I wish I’d never met them. I wish I could’ve just skipped to Ivan, Fire, Blade, and Reactorkore, because those are the only people worth speaking to at this point.

I would ditch Fire, Blade, and Reactorkore too, just to be completely disconnected from them, but I can’t. I like Fire, and I like Reactorkore. I’m still sick of it though. I don’t want to deal with anyone remotely connected to them at this point. I want nothing to do with them.

I just AHG. I want to punch someone in the face right now.

So, My newest band [flavor-of-the-month] is Black Kids. None of the kids are actually black, which makes the name all the better. “Partie Traumatic” and “I’m not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance with You” are my favorites so far. Oh, and “I’m Making Eyes at You” has portions that remind me of Kirby songs. I think the fact that I grew up around those games had a large effect on my music taste. Black Kids are about as electronic as you can get. I’ve learned about more bands this year than before: MGMT, Metric, Melpo Mene, Black Kids…and Pandora keeps giving me more bands to check out >_<.

U.S. History…The really funny thing is that I was considering with-drawling from the class (the no-penalty withdrawal date is coming up) if I did poorly on the essay/exam we had last week. What’s funny about this? I got the test back yesterday: A-. I was, once again, one of three kids in the class who got an A. The other two were these college Sophomore boys, and we all happened to be sitting next to each other yesterday.

Immediately afer receiving the A’s and getting recognition for our grades, I noticed we all started answering the teachers questions more. It’s like the grade backed us up in our convinctions. Professor Molovinsky asked the class “Do you think we should teach the Christian Creationist view alongside with Evolution?” and I said “not unless you’re going to teach every other religion’s view”. He agreed with me, but he then went to ask “But is it right to teach religion alongside science?”, and I replied “no, religion is not related to science”. Then he went on to quote Einstein who said something along the lines of “Science explains what we know, and religion explains that which we do not”. He then said that he agreed with the Christian community on one thing “Evolution should be stated as a theory and students should be encouraged to explore any other theories”. He then went on to say “I know what their angle was for saying it, but it’s true. If Evolution is the only theory taught, it seems more like fact even though it isn’t.” I swear he’s like the embodiment of all of my opinions on everything political.

What’s funny is when the Christian kids in the class try to act all above everyone else. They challenged him once or twice. Historians can’t believe in God, because they base everything off of historic documents to prove events. The Bible and most other holy books are not a historically sound documents, so most history teachers/professors are usually Agnostic/Atheist/Deist. The same goes for science, but it seems like there are more Christian or faithful scientists than there are historians.

I’m much happier now. I feel like I’m learning again. I’m learning way more than I ever learned within the two years I was in PBHS. Between Spanish I, Algebra II, US History, and Composition (though this class is more lulzy essays) I’m much more content. All I want is a feeling of accomplishment when something occupies my time, and since PBHS was sucking my time like a black hole, and giving me very little sense of accomplishment I was miserable. This is taking less time, and I’m learning more. Public schools are so efficient…

[Ace]

Yes, by looking at the title you can plainly see that I’m looking for an excuse to ignore my chores and homework. I want to rest a little =|. Thank the Jews [Jewjewbeans?] that I have today off of my Comp class. I need to use today to do other things…like procrastinate doing those things.

SO! I got my first official essay grade in Comp on Tuesday. The first essay I wrote was more of practice and didn’t count for much, but this last essay was the real deal. AND, I got an A- =) 12.5/13 points. I was one of three students to get an A on my paper, so I felt pretty good. Most everyone got C’s. The kid who usually sits next to me, Steven, is the only person who knows my actual age, and he can’t believe I do so well. Aha, I’m definitely cut out for this sort of stuff. College is easy for now, especially in BCC.

I’m still looking for a job. It seems like almost no one is hiring in the Coral Springs-Tamarac-Margate-Coconut Creek- Pompano- Fort Lauderdale area. Amazing, no? Stupid economy >:3. However, I did find a couple of job postings that I replied to: one was for a fashion boutique [Francesca's Collections] in Coconut Creek, and the other Plato’s Closet in Coral Springs. I sent them both my schedule and my resume. Plato’s Closet replied to my email [literally] 5 minutes after I sent the email. They replied to me with: “I appreciate your interest and enthusiasm.  Very impressed with the resume.  I will pass this along to my manager. Thank you”. =D, so hopefully they’ll hire me or at least give me an interview >:|. I still have to call Isabel from Crème Brûlée Café [that's a lot of accents..]. Isabel, the manager, told me to call her next Tuesday to ask about the job. She’s not hiring as of yet due to little business currently.

I just want a job =(. I want money to buy Christmas gifts this year; I hate depending on my allowance for that. I usually end up using my Birthday money to buy Christmas gifts. Arg. I even had Claire vouch for me at Starbucks, but they can’t hire me because they don’t allow siblings to work under each other (Claire would be a Shift Manager, and I would be a Barista), so that’s down the tubes. It’s just…RAWR.

I had a very long dream last night. I woke up a few times as a result of it. Nightmarish at one point, I suppose. I’m pretty sure it was about Ivan. Apparently he was cheating on me or I suspected it and it seemed evident. But I do remember him taking me in his arms and petting/cuddling me and reassuring me that everything was fine. All I really remember vividly is the cuddling thing. *sigh*. Christmas needs to come faster so I can see him again, but it also needs to come slower so I can get a job to earn money for Christmas gifts. There’s no winning in this situation =(.

I’m amazed I’ve been surviving this as long as I have been. Not in the sense that I need a break up, that would make everything worse, but in the sense that I would jump off a cliff if it meant that I’d see him sooner.

[Ace]

Journal! Please accept my apology for abusing you so. Trust me, it’s amazing I’ve kept you this long.

I haven’t been writing lately, I know. I won’t write unless I’m in the mood and sometimes that’s frequently, other times it’s almost never.

The majority of my time these past weeks has been spent studying US History (I got very behind and basically became a hermit for a week to catch up in time for an exam/essay). Other than that, I’ve been sick for a while with a sniffle-like illness. BUT, I still got the chance to party last night. Shh, don’t tell my parents, they think it was a video game party =P.

I went to a Reacatorkore party for a change, which is probably the best party to go to. I’m definitely considering just having a similar party for my birthday with them, because they’re the coolest people I’ve met so far. I didn’t really feel totally into their side of the group until now, and I’m glad they accept me =).

Some things happened, I kind of kissed Laura for the fuck of it. I wonder if my mom will still be happy that I’m making a girlfriend if she finds out that Laura is bi? Haha, I think I’ll leave that detail out for a while. Laura is pretty cool, and I do hope to hang out with her more often as well as the rest of the superior side of the group. Fuck the Pompano-drama-ridden half that I got sucked into, this half is much more my style.

Blade basically tried to take advantage of me at this party, which I do not appreciate. At the time he asked me if I was mad at him, and I wasn’t; but then the alcohol left me… now I’m pretty pissed. I never get “drunk”, I get tipsy or overly tipsy but NEVER drunk. He tried to kiss me (more than once), and I pushed him away (naturally). I love Ivan, and that’s it. Even if I did like Blade, I would never do that. I’m completely and utterly loyal to Ivan [period]. I’m never “partying” with Blade again, not if he’s going to act like that everytime. He was just using the event as an excuse. He wasn’t fun to be around the majority of the time. The only time I did enjoy being with him was when he and I were talking one-on-one, which we rarely do in person. He just needs to be more relaxed or something.

Everything is going smoothly so far. I’m pretty sure I’ve got A’s in my two college courses, and I definately have an A in Spanish and a high B in Algebra II. Oh! I’m also planning on taking college Algebra next semester. It’s almost identical to Algebra II.

The only complaint I have is that I miss Ivan more and more each day =(. I keep having dreams about him. I miss holding him, hugging him, kissing him…everything. Though time has picked up it’s pace since when he first left (late July), I still can’t wait for the day we get to see each other again =). Hopefully it’s before Christmas, but I won’t get my hopes up.

I love you lovel ^_^, thanks for being such a dedicated reader of my blog (probably only reader).

[Ace]

I fucking love dual enrollment.

Seriously, this is the most productive I’ve felt since 5th grade (my first year of school, when I learned a crapload). I mean, Comp I is like 9th grade English Honors for me, and I got an A in that class throughout that entire semester (Mr. Chandler).

We’re working on MLA format; is there a laughing emoticon? Because I would use that right now. Our first essay isn’t even assigned yet, and we’ll have two weeks to write it…it’s 500 words long and a creative expository essay. We’re not reading anything in this class, so no more literary essays (one of my least favorite due to Mrs. Owens and Mr. Chandler wearing them out). As far as I can tell, we’re not going to be writing many research papers either (though I think there’s one or two in there). It’s such a lax class. There’s no clock in there, and it seems like the class lasts 15 minutes tops. I absolutely love it.

All I have to worry about outside of Comp I is Algebra II (which, I have an A in currently =P) and Spanish I, which I won’t be starting until tomorrow. BVS classes are great, BCC classes are great….It’s so hard to believe that I’m one of few kids doing this right now. Most of the kids at PBHS are taking AP and it’s just not worth it. I’m getting just as many credits as them (possibly more) without the stress and absence policy. Not to mention the fact that my professors are brilliant, and most of the AP teachers make learning an even more difficult task than it needs to be.

I’m just so happy right now. It’s a good thing too, because if I was still in Pompano it would be much more difficult to ignore my Love’s absence. The happier I am here, the better I can deal with that absence. I just really hope this experience lasts…don’t shatter my finally content soul reality! Don’t give me a terrible professor! (Even if I did get a terrible professor, I’d still feel productive which is really all I need).

[Ace]